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Smothered Silence by ~Devathi:iconDevathi:



A silvery beam of moonlight prowled into her open window, through the parted curtains reflecting the wordless agony in her troubled hazel eyes and fell on her silent tears which glistened like sublime droplets of the moon itself. The gentle breeze threatened to carry away these timeless droplets on its wings and away into the cold, dark night. She clutched her precious little stuffed animal close to her aching bosom, stroking its small patch of black hair. He had been her immaculately faithful companion. The one thing (or rather person to her), who would never seek to injure her already wounded heart, intentionally or otherwise. He was the one person she could trust completely to guard that vital organ and this realization came to her each time she held him close to her bleeding heart.

Thus she lay wide awake at this absurd time of the night, completely still except for the occasional tear drop that escaped her brimming eyes, the tiny lifeless animal lying directly above her heart. She felt secure in his dimunitive arms, a sense of comfort and belonging like she had felt with no other living person, and felt as though he would keep the world's harsh cruelty at bay, preventing it from causing her anymore suffering than she needed. He was the only one who eased her smothered qualms, the only one who understood her tranquil silence which was only broken my muted sobs. Her tears dried to a trickle as she continued to grip him in what seemed like an eternal embrace, but with this passive familiarity was an unfathomable apathy that welled up inside her. In her sublime solitude, she had found solace in this inanimate angel, but she had begun to realize that what she saw in him was merely a reflection of all that she would never have, all that she would never dare to dream of having. Despite the depth of her meaningless affection for him, the time had come for her to accept the brutal truth, to rise from her decadent emotions and see him for what he always had been - a stuffed animal. He only lived, in the real sense, in the most soothing realms of her wild fantasies and nothing beyond. Her days would not be filled with subterfuge any longer and she decided to erect protective shields of her own around her fragile existence instead of seeking refuge, ensconced in the darkest corners of her mind. It was time to let him go but she would continue to love him eternally.
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Author's Comments

:love: I am very grateful to Lil' Manipid who was the first to read this. Thankee for the great analysis! :)

I wrote this after waking up in the middle of the night, amidst a bad dream that seemed to continue. I really don't remember what the dream was or the relevance of the story and why I wrote it when I did. Lil' Manipid did give me a reasonable explanation which I think is closest to the truth and I shall not disclose it here.

Now that I think about it - I think this piece of writing is for anyone who has depended on someone or something to pick them up each time they have fallen. It is for them to realize that at some point of time, they have to learn to pick themselves up, especially when the person/thing they depended on previously has been lost. I shall quote my friend, Akanksha, here: I am my own saviour.

I would appreciate suggestions and criticism.

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:iconca3lum:
beautifully written poodle. it makes me sad...(sheesh now i want more gelato!) i dream half, if not all the time...so i can relate to this. bravo!
i wanna hear the 'reasonable explanation' maniza gave you!
i love these lines 'she decided to erect protective shields of her own around her fragile existence instead of seeking refuge, ensconced in the darkest corners of her mind' :clap:
if i have any criticism to offer then this is it: try breaking it into paras. it reduces the monotony in the middle :)

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...a refletion of the shadows
and a shadow of the light...

[link] join the revolution! :D
:iconca3lum:
would someone please make lil'manipid put up stuff on DA!!!! i wanna read it!!!

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...a refletion of the shadows
and a shadow of the light...

[link] join the revolution! :D
:icondevathi:
Thankeeeeee.... :love: Oh those lines.. I wrote that at 4 in the morning! Lol. Thankee again!

Yeah sure.. I'll mail you the reasonable explanation.

Hmmm yeah I was considering paragraphs, but I usually break into them only when its not related too closely to the text before it... aargh... I can't explain it...! :p

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Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.
:icondevathi:
I'm trying my best, but I kinda know how she feels now after joining DA. Its the same way I felt when I didn't wanna put up anything! Let her take her own time...

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Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.
:icondevathi:
Ok I tried breaking it up.. that's the most I can do... :

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Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.
:iconca3lum:
k that'll do :)
its just that chunks look formidable and you dont want the reader to give up before he/she has started. :cookie: for you
now its a :+fav: :) hehe

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...a refletion of the shadows
and a shadow of the light...

[link] join the revolution! :D
:icondevathi:
Yayyy! :hug: Thankee!

I want a subway cookie.. when I went last time they had only sugar cookies and raisin cookies.

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Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.
:iconca3lum:
you are very welcome :hug:
i've never even had those raisin ones. they look disgusting! and now they even have oatmeal cookies! EEeeeewwwW!!!
try the double choco chip ones!mmmmm!!! they'd taste amazing with mint after9 gelato!!!!

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...a refletion of the shadows
and a shadow of the light...

[link] join the revolution! :D
:icondevathi:
Yeah I was looking out for those, but didn't find em...! :(

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Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.

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